So. i’m not so numb anymore.

instead of staying away from him like i was supposed to, first thing i did was to see him. i saw the happiness in his eyes when he saw me. i felt happy to see him and hear him and smell him…

i saw his love in his eyes again, in his touch. but he asked me for one more week. to think and whatever.

and it crushed me again.

but. when he left, i felt this little hope, in that brief moment where i felt he still loved me.

well now, i just feel sad because i’m alone. because i begged him not to leave me and he still did.

i’ve been sad and sensitive. feeling hurt by people. and things at work haven’t helped that much.

i just want to wait for the man of my dreams, to come back.

meanwhile i’ll be dying sad.