So. i’m single again. and this is the top 10 things to do, when you’re doing fine getting single again:

1. Update Social-Networking sites: So i started at facebook, changing the status from “in a relationship with…” to “Single”. then i moved to other places and finally i just updated MySpace. It’s funny because i haven’t logged on MySpace for more than 9 months. But i came back!

2. Re-visit all Social-Networking sites you used to love and check on your e-pals: So while i was in a relationship, i was a bitch to my E-pals. I completelly forgot about internet and a lot of sites i used to visit. So i came back to YouTube and watched a lot of videos from my friends, made some comments. I watched a lot of Chris Crocker videos. I just love this guy <3 it’s so sweet to see that no matter what, your e-pals are there. they have enough fans/friends that they just won’t bother because you left for like 6 months, they will always receive you back with a huge hug and sweet words. That’s nice.

3. Update negledted blog: So i didn’t post that much while i was happy. maybe you’re just my wall of shame, but it’s always good to come back and write, clear my mind, take stuff out of my system, even be creative as i used to be. It’s always good for the heart, the mind and the soul.

4. Get back in touch with Fandoms: so livejournal, hi back!. I hadn’t had much time to check my fave comms in livejournal. and i had a lot of reading to do. but it’s great to be back to what used to be my passions, what used to be me. the very few good parts of me. i’m excited about BSG starting again this January, and i’m slightly obsessed with the Big Bang Theory, so i really want to dive full into it. I’m still working on this point, but i’ve had a good start.

5. Clean PC: it’s the only cleaning i want to do. I would say “clean house” too but i’m too fucking lazy. depression is showing itself right now through low energy. i really don’t want to move that much. only when absolutelly needed. but PC is always there and doesn’t require that much moving. So i really gotta clean my pc, because i have so much movies i want to see, and tv shows to catch up. so i need space. lots and lots of space. i’ll be doing this soon…

6. Listen to meaningful music: ok this one is touchy. music means a lot to me. so it’s a need that can hurt, but if you can handle it, it’s good. i’ve been listening to good music again. hearing the lyrics, singing. somethings may remind me of the previous relationship, but if handled well, it can be rich. Right now i’m kinda hooked on Kylie Minogue latest album. So sexy. and the music gets stuck in your fraking mind. I’m fearing country music. I love it but it’s too sad. I just want good music to feel good. Sometimes i just put on a sad playlist on purpose. and shed a tear or too. join a crescendo of feelings and multiply it with drama. but that’s good too.

7. Buy something: So this one is the hardest for me right now because i’m out of cash and full of debts. But i’m honestly thinking about buying what i’ve been wanting for quite long, and that is some kind of game console. I’ve been wanting a X-Box to play DDR and Guitar Hero. I’ve been obsessed with a PSP lately too. so the best investment is the X-Box obviously. I don’t know what i’ll get. I’m sure it’s gonna be the X.box. but it’s gonna take like 6 months for me to get it. oh gelly crap. but still i’ll do it. And it’s great to have an economic-consumistic goal again. i missed that feeling.

8. Do Nothing: Exactly. that. nothing. just lay in bed. sleep a lot. Sleep is the best friend of your mind. it ceases the stupid noise inside. It gives you peace. closest to death or any other medications. i have a special hability for this one. i can sleep a lot. so just lay there, listen to music or whatever cheap tv show  (i just love VH1 realities) and sleep.

9. Smoke (or retake whatever bad habit you had and left for your past relationship): so i stopped smoking because i was thinking about having babies with my past boyfriend. i did it for the babies, not for me or even him (maybe a little tiny bit for him). so right now, no plans to procreate. noone close to do it with. so i bought a pack of cigs and i felt sooo good. i’ve been the regular smoker i used to be. i’m more aware of the damages it causes me, but i’m certainly under a self destruction phase somehow (i’ve always been), and there’s no reason to change that. smoking makes me feel back in touch with myself. i’m doing it because i want to. more than a habit, more than a hook. It’s me being me. so i love it.

10. Make plans. Little day-by-day plans (and feel great about them): So. i had plans with this guy. we were having a family, and that’s what i’ve always dreamt of. I was even thinking about how i was going to get there finantially. but always planning in 2. Now it’s a good chance to think about 1. and that 1 is me. and i feel good right now. maybe it’s because i’m getting used to disappointment, because it’s not the first time that couple plans come crashing down. i don’t know what it is. but i feel good thinking about me. about buying my next house. gettin MY stuff. i’m excited and so happy.

At the end of the day, mixed feelings, but it’s gonna be ok.

over and out.