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life is ok. i love my boyfriend and he loves me back. i had a little crisis last friday. depression kicking in, but i guess it’s caused for not-well-handled pressure at work.

I’m really living under a lot of pressure and most people don’t understand it. i guess we all do, but i’ve never been under this pressure before.

the cruel thing is that it’s self-imposed pressure. people at work are ok, i mean, i can handle them, sometimes… but it’s my own brain the one that’s bugging me.

so i’m gonna try to follow some basic tips i’ve read online to try to stay cool.

what’s been really helping me is my dear love. he’s been patient, he’s been sweet and caring, the perfect guy!!

i’ve been scared to hurt him during my crisis, but he stood strong. i tried to push him away, and he fought his way back to me. he’s really wonderful, i hope his strenght last for a long long time, because i can’t control myself.

i know i have to, i have to learn not to push him away, because he’s the man of my dreams and he future father of my kids hehehe, he’s the best.

it’s funny how life seems so short and then so long. i see into his eyes and we talk about the future we want to build together, and i enjoy this moment so much but sometimes i just want to rush the future and live this wonderful dreams, get married, have kids be happy forever… it’s crazy, how i want it to come fast sometimes, i can’t wait to live this plans.

i know i shouldn’t rush it, i know i have to live the moment at the fullest. i know we have to plan other things so we won’t regret later our desitions…. but still.

sounds crazy and i’ve never felt like that before, and it’s sweet because i know he feels the same way about me.

we have all this things around us that makes everything so complicated, but we don’t really care.

he says i’m a gift from god. he’s the one that saved my life, he’s the one that found me when i gave up the hope to be happy. how could i ever forget this love? how could i ever forget these feelings he makes me feel? i’m scared my brain washes it all away in the future, but i hope that it sticks with me. because i want to. i want to remember forever this feeling. i want to.

over and out

well well. I’m SO happy.

and so i’ve been for the last month.

time in bogota was not nice at all. because i didn’t have him close.

now i’m back at medellin and let me tell ya, it’s heaven.

work sucks. things have gotten messy and actually boring. too many problems. not feeling so good with myself about my work. so that sucks

but i couldn’t care less.

i’m with this awesome man. this wonderful guy. he’s brought me peace and love for a month! and i haven’t blogged about him that much!!!! how come??

i really don’t know.

real life sucks.

real love consumes. real love entertains. real love makes me forget about everything that doesn’t really matter.

not that you, my dear blog, it’s not important. actually, i care about you too much. but i just became used to come here and cry, and forgot what was like to come here to be happy and share good things with you too.

so here i am, to talk to you about my man.

he’s too good to be true. and one love song to define him, us and this, is not enough.

i could ramble for hours about him and i really have to go to work hahahaha, but i just wanted to write that i’m happy, life is not perfect, but i can really live with this imperfection right now.

if there was a mystical force that asked if i could trade awesome job for a lover, i did accept it and now i’m happy with that choice.

i don’t want to be a looser for him. i want to be successful for us. but i’m not overstressed over the fact that things aren’t going well.

i’m not over sad about people wanting to hurt me at work. wanting to screw the chance i have to go up at work.

i honestly don’t care about them. i feel like crap sometimes, hell yeah. but i’m so lucky to have someone to come back to everyday. open arms to hug me and let me know it’s gonna be ok. that i’m gonna be loved even if i fail.

isn’t he great?

gotta run to work, but i promise to come back and talk about him more.

pd: stalker, and if there’s actually any real readers here, i’m sorry if i’m going to be too cheesy, but if you really care about me at all, you’re gonna enjoy happy!maclau because that haven’t been around in a looonnggg time

love ya all, over and out.