i’m back at this town for work.

i’m doing fine. actually the day i got here i had an exhilariating ‘nerd’s night’ where i had so much fun. i was so happy and sad at the sametime, rollercoaster of emotions, thanks to Horatio Hornblower and Accidental Babies by Damien Rice… it was really good. i wanted to write here in that moment, but i couldn’t i just sat here and enjoyed a lot.

right now i’m resting, i had a nice day by myself, just listening to music, reading fanfiction, pleasing myself -let’s not get into details here-

this week a new fantasy came true, after kinky time *he* was the one that had to go. and i stayed, after it all in my bed, no need to get dressed or fix my hair, no feeling of guilt or worry of ‘what am i gonna say?’ or ‘how am i gonna hide it?’ , no lazyness… it was really good.

it reminded me of an old lover who said that his fantasy was this. he said it jokingly but it was true.

i never thought i felt so ‘full’ to live this situation, and hell yeah it’s a fantasy came true.

what else…. working, things can look good and bad sometimes, so i’m just letting time pass.

my responsability is shining for it’s absence. i feel so lazy and so tired, and i don’t know why.

good part is, i’m taking my meds again, i hope that fixes it. i really hope.

hard week coming ahead, so see yaaa, over and out.