so what i can remember of my dream last night.

i was in a secret mission to capture i don’t know who, but i was with a guy who was my partner, but i had a baby… it was my son… and i was in the operative with the baby… couldn’t i get a nany??

so first i had to bury myself in the arena of a beach to stay hidden while some bitch came and said things… the thing is that it went wrong and they found us, so we did our best to try to stick to the plan but finally it went wrong, and they captured us.

i was taken to a place (mysteriously identical to my actual home :P) and i had to stay in the living room, killing bugs… yuck :S

so that’s all i remember

i think it’s because the overdose of nip tuck. maybe julia & sean’s baby is stuck in my head. also about the handsome cool partner, it’s a mix of nip tuck and lost fanfics

so this is the time of the year when i decide to change my website layout hope everyone likes it (L)

brook…

another girl looking for cyber sex… in the wrong moment :S

so.

the night before last night i had a dream about having a baby. i had a baby but i couldn’t find it. i looked everywhere, i called him, and he was just missing.
details i remember; something about a place to ask for some paper, asking for a turn and shit… weird.

last night i dream about some weird thing. first i got to a friend’s house, and there was a party going on, everyone was celebrating and the big surprise was that her brother was painting his room walls to green :S i took the color and painted the front of the house, but for some reason i lost the original color. so i had to go a buy more colors. in the way to get the paint i had to take some weird transportation system where i found some people. i talked to them (i recognize and old art teacher from school, and a guy from tv! Jota Mario :P) and there was this guy i can’t remember who he is, but he was special to me, and he care about me.
During the trip i found people looking for some special stuff to end the world. and then there i was trying to stop them. but accidentally i found them, and shit is that i was some sort of evangelion-shinji or something like that because I was the one who could finish it all. So i kinda lost control of myself, but kissed goodby my sweetboy there.

so i went to a special place to confront whatever hell i had to to finish it all… and i can’t remember what happens.
end.

so. from now on i’m gonna write my dreams, maybe i can keep track of my crazy brain. i’m not announcing it, so check the tag/category of the post first.

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so i was preparing a trip to spain, just in the way i found out about an FBI convention in Israel, so i decided to go.
The dream actually starts with me in the plain getting to Israel.
The convention is really lame, has some vids on it that i manage to copy, but it’s mainly about… i forget.

there’s mulder and scully but they are sit on the back of the place so i can hardly see them, but i’m not that concerned about it.
so going back to spain -or colombia- i start collecting some papers that reminds me of andrea p., like letters she wrote to me or something, somethings i want to show her and give her back.

then i’m getting into  my bedroom to show some people the vid from israel. one of them is hugo, and i’m pregnant! he’s sweet as i lay down and… i forget.

also there’s a moment while i’m telling my parents about my unexpected trip to israel, and like always my father is some sort of pissed, questioning why i went there knowing it’s dangerous (or near some place dangerous)

… that’s quite all, i can’t remember anymore…

REAL LIFE CONNECTIONS:
^ actual project co-worker told me about he visiting israel in a work seminar, some time ago.
^ i went to brazil and i was all grown up doing my will even if my father still hates the idea.
^ yesterday i found a new place for my x-files dvds.

Shadowboxer - Fiona Apple 

Once my lover, now my friend.
What a cruel thing to pretend.
What a cunning way to condescend.
Once my lover, now my friend.

Oh, you creep up like the clouds.
And you set my soul to ease.
Then you let your love abound.
And you bring me to my knees.

Oh, its evil,babe,the way you let your grace enrapture me.
When, well, you know, Id be insane -
To ever let that dirty game recapture me.

You made me a shadowboxer, baby.
I wanna be ready for what you do.
I been swinging all around me.
cause I dont know when youre gonna make your move.

Oh, your gaze is dangerous.
And you fill your space so sweet.
If I let you get too close,
Youll set your spell on me.

So, darlin, I just wanna say.
Just in case I dont come through.
I was on to every play.
I just wanted you.

But, oh, its so evil, my love,
The way youve no reverence to my concern.
So, Ill be sure to stay wary of you, love,
To save the pain of once my flame and twice my burn.

You made me a shadowboxer, baby.
I wanna be ready for what you do.
I been swinging all around me.
cause I dont know when youre gonna make your move.

so, i was out like 4 days, but now the domain is up and running again.

my boyfriend got in a car accident at 1 am this morning, he’s fine fortunatelly, but the car got badly damaged.

last night was lost season finale, and it was amazing, i’m more obsessed with lost. love that damn tv show. gotta buy the dvds and gotta live from wednesday to wednesday to get to the lost crazy night.

jealousy. what a hard thing.

life. what a cruel thing.

possesion. obsession. love.

so many stuff.

but the point is; people will come and go. and it will always hurt in the heart.
i will always love my Jack, and even though we cannot be together, and i will see him get another woman… i will hurt to bleed.

everything good.

nothing weird. going smooth.

happy cool great