so.

this is what’s going on.

I met someone

you saw that coming don’t you?
at work, i met a guy, and really hot and cute one. he’s the ‘i’m cute, shy, a complete gentleman’ kind of guy.

did i mention he’s hot? the guy is SO HANDSOME. why is that you hot cute guys are so shy and geek and lovely?????? i have i complete weakness for shy-geek-cute guys. i don’t know it’s just a pattern…

ok, so, the guy. his name is Nicolas ((((((isn’t that a cute name!!!??)))))) he’s tall and has this extremely cute big dark eyes. perfect face. and so kissable.

but the guy, is so shy. he’s the shyest (if there’s sucha word) of the shy men i’ve met. he’s so reserved. he’s sucha gentleman. and the thing is that he likes me. i think.

i mean, the people that know him, noticed he’s doing things, he didn’t do before, like going out and being online a lot, and stuff.. and looks like it’s because of me.

so i loveeeee having the attention. (L) so i got his. and he makes me think some things. some sexual and pervert ones, and some…. more about kissing him…. and some others about him naked on bed with me… and some more about kissing.

so… what is that?…. why am i so drawn at him?… and what worries me most, am i not in love anymore with my boyfriend?

i do love him. i think. i do care for him. and hell, it’s like my husband…. then why am i getting this thoughts of someone else??

is that something wrong with me?? or i’m really falling out of love?? or what?

i can’t tell i feel love for the other guy. so the question is, so i feel love for my bf?

ok flash news interrumped this post…… some real time blog action….. guess who’s back! the canadian guy. and he’s still interested in me… he’e even talking about marriage
gosh, life and be complicated and now it’s worse!!! :S

ok.

so going back to the cute guy (who’s image in my head is now blurred by the money and good life the canadian guy is ready to give me anytime :S i know, such a matherialistic bitch) so the thing is:

why did i get with hugo to start with? yeah i liked him but also there was this feeling of power and satisfaction of getting to make my way, make him love me, and say things he won’t say otherwise.

so the thing is, that this guy makes me feel that, like i die to hear him say i love you, or express any kind of emotion, and that’s been like romance life ever.

so… where’s the love actually?…. is that love? i’ve never felt it? i think i’ve done… so is this love? am i in love with someone else?

why if it’s wrong, i want to keep having him around, and keep pulling to see where this takes me??…. everything is crazy. that’s all i have to say.

mm everything is perfect but…

read next post, by the way, it will be password protected, only available to a true stalker but i’m not sure you wanna read it
the password is the name i used in that dark blog where i only talked about sex