so, is this the last round?

had another argument with my parents about the trip. i don’t wanna talk to much about it. had an aweful morning yesterday because of that. summary: my father say i’m just about the same thing that my brother is. he compared and concluded that my trip to brazil thanks to a international company, is just the same shit that my brother in a roadtrip to ecuator -paying his ass off- for a catholic-cristian-cult-shit community.

so, while i’m building my career, learning shit and growing, i’m just about the same stupid shit worthless, always to his eyes.

he said ‘now don’t come to be the same waste than your brother, all the money invested, for him to be given away in a religious community’ … so it’s like that. sucks like that.

besides the fact that my mother betrayed me, telling him my shit while i keep her secret from him. so i felt like shit for so many things.

fortunatelly, i have lovely friends that care for me, and a lovely sweetheart that stayed with me the whole afternoon and made me smile, and let me rest from the world.(l)

i’m falling slowly in love. i feel safe. he’s so much things, but he’s single, and that gives me sucha relief, to know that he’s staying with me, he’s sleeping in the nights alone t bed, thinking about me. and so am i. it’s weird how things are growing, but i think they are growing strong. so i’m just happy. it’s all that and more. i’m feeling safe. i feel happy and INDEED SATISFIED –> that’s awesome, almost unbelievable

so, the world keeps turning, my life keeps going on, and i’m going to brazil as long as the company wants me to.