i have this stupid headache that suddenly throwed me to bed.
i was working like good girls do, and now i can’t see the pc screen. my eye hurts. i think its because of my stomach and somehow because of stress.

so i promised stalker i’ll give him something to read, so this is the last thing i’m doing tonight.

today i worked in the morning like a good girl. it was one of those days when i feel hyper at work, and suddenly in a charge of initiative i give myself freely a lot more of work that i absolutelly have no need to. so i send an e-mail to the whole university employees about updating some info and now my inbox is full with work. i was happy. boss is happy. tomorrow i’ll bang my head agains the pc screen for being sucha good worker :S ((what an asshole!))… that’s a bad thing when you love your work :S

in the afternoon while my inbox was flooded with work and MS emails, i played a game with my friend Li and talked about 3 months without talking. she told me about her unfair job problems, and i told her about my (l)ove life. i told her about H. ((( oh hell, finally someone that gets it! her first reaction was PRO-maclau, unless like so many people ))). i told her about the cute guys i’ve been seeing and fooling around. i told her about my stalker. we talked about love and live and stuff.

and i concluded yet again that i’m enjoying being single. SO FUCKING MUCH!.
Some days i feel like falling in love, like caring and loving and giving and giving and giving. but sometimes i just feel like taking. finally taking what i deserve, for being a good girl for so long. and taking and not staying…. so i can’t tell what’s gonna happen next.

for now, i’m gonna try to sleep. and to dream him. i’ll replay some images i’ve seen tonight in my head, i’ll imagine so many more. i’ll keep going on with last night’s dream. i’ll keep trying to bring his touch to my skin. i’ll picture him kissing my moles again. feeling his lips and his skin. letting him discover all i want him to discover. teasing our need to feel, prolonging the longing, painfully taking ages to satisfy our wanting… i’ll keep dreaming of you and me tonight.