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January 30th, 2006 by

maclau

everything started so slowly that we didn’t have the chance to notice

i wonder if we did we would have stopped in time.

right now i don’t think so.

i’ve felt the pain of the lost and abandon, of failing the one you love

i saw your eyes when you gave up to them

and i swear to god i would do anything not to see that again

so i stood there, trying to scream my lungs out for you to be saved

and then, i lost you

you were gone. they took you to the unknown and there were

no hopes left for me… those terrorized eyes were the last thing i saw

they got engraved in my mind for the rest of my life

your last words to me where ‘ i’m sorry ‘ and mine were ‘ please ‘

i wish i had said something better like ‘ i love you ‘ or ‘we’ll meet again’

time passed like ages. every minute without you was like a splinter

killing you little by little

i tried to image where they took you, whay they did to you.

i cried. i wanted to die. like you tried before.

2 months passed by and i never forgot you, you must understand that.

now a miracle happened, the unthinkable became true

you were back to me. you came back with our son

or daughter… i’d love to know if we’re expecting a baby boy or girl

right now, all i have is you. your skin and its scars. of fighting, of running, or being shot

your cough that bring blood out your mouth and i wish i had more resources to know

exactly what’s making you sick… but i can take care of you and i will.

of you and our baby.

i’ll care for you, every minute i will watch you, and i will not let you go again

i have faith. i believe that you can get better with the few medicines and the hot bath i can get for you

you’ll heal. and our baby will be fine.

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i know, i know you will care for me. i won’t be alone again anymore. i’m scared too. but we’ll make it.

i love you, and i’ll keep fighting for this… for ever.