i’m hungry it’s my last week in the Microsoft thingie. saturday and sunday it’s gonna be a loooooooong meeting. last night while having an argument with a guy who used to be my best-friend-of-the-moment i found i new trauma in myself. actually i found an answer to something that i felt. a feeling that keeps buggin’ me about the ms thingie and the so called friends that i meet there. i felt sad. disappointed. angry. frustrated. lot of things. i kept fighting with everyone, like i needed them to say that i was right and change… after thinking a lot about it i realiced the i’ve been doing an internal fight not to let myself fall into the same dark hole that my father’s in. i *do* wanna believe that good people is out there, that you can trust your friends… i don’t wanna isolate from the world waiting not to be hurted. i like talking to people because i hate thinking that i should just give up on them and leave arguments just there… that’s why i keep fighting with jean. i’m hurt. but i don’t wanna leave things like this. i really wanna know that he’s sorry and that he’s concious that he made a mistake and that he’s gonna change/whatever… but just because i don’t wanna give up on that issue and just forever think that ‘people sucks’… i don’t wanna be like my father. sounds idealistic, but i do believe in people. i think we’re not ‘bad’ or ‘good’ i think we made mistakes… but i wanna believe in the good soul… i mean, i’m not talking about the people with any mental dissorder, because i know they can’t have full control of themselves… i’m talking about the everyday people, most people around us. i believe that by nature you don’t wanna harm others… fool of me :S but i do wanna believe in that. i mean, i don’t trust everyone. but i like to trust the people that’s been around me for certain time… i dunno… it’s quite hard to accept that a friend is not like you thought. i’m rambling here… i’m trying to put it in the right words. i know it’s normal that people tends to act quite egoistical, but it’s hard to accept that from people you love. i dont know it’s weird it’s easier just say ‘people sucks, leave me alone’ and never trusting anyone at all again. but i don’t wanna be like that. i wanna understand it, and i wanna live with it. i wanna teach my children something better… i’d rather teach them ‘everyone has problems, everyone lives their own world in their heads, everyone has a different story and pains and happiness, friends can last long if both want it. friends can be temporal but still friends……’ than ‘trust no one, people sucks’ i don’t know… i really want to understand it., all i know is that i hate that selfish stubborn vision of the world and human beings.

A new píxel clicke club, Píxel Sisters I’ve finished the astronomy course and taking it with Hugo was the most romantic thing on earth!!! And space LOL. It was great. I’m so excited about keep studying about it, it’s pretty cool. I’ve started the Country dolls course, 10 Saturday mornings to learn Country art!!  Woooow… so nice… kind of expensive but it’s ok. I haven’t seen Hugo today, he’s having ‘family weekend’ and I’m ok with that, actually I’m glad he’s having a good time with family!! I’ll see him tomorrow, I’ll be with him while he subscribes the classes he’s gonna take next semester. That’s all I guess… not much really. But I’m happy, no depressions no sadness, no nothing, I’m happily ok!

hi here, i’ve been kind of away from my blog. this week i started the astronomy classes… it’s been *so* cool, the most wonderful things is that hugo is taking them with me we haven’t gone outside because it’s been kind of cloudy (damn) but it doesn’t really matter, the thing it’s that we have now a good relationship with everyone in the observatory so we can go back anytime and watch stars i’ve been working hard on all my projects right now. also i’m going to start a country dolls course this saturday and for 10 weeks. i’m sooo happy!!! wooow right now it’s 5 am, i’ve been up 1 hour, working my ass off to finish a design for one of the projects… ::. yawn .:: the bad thingie is that my stomach is aching a lot! damn well, people take care, talk to you world later

Questions For July 13th Bad Girls!!! 1. Have You Ever Been Arressted?: Nooo, thanks god 2. How many Tattoo’s do You Have?: None 3. What’s the Most Bad-Ass thing You’ve Ever Done?: i don’t remember, i really should ask my friends about that one… 4. How Many Times Have You Been Pulled Over?: Not many :p 5. Have You Ever Lied To Get Your Way?: Yes, at home all the time.

:d love blogs! i’ve created a new one, just for lyrics… songs i love.

i guess hugo is not in the mood today. you can imagine how much i hate sunday. it’s been now 3 months together. not easy but amazingly wonderful 3 months. full of pleasure, joy, love… unfortunatelly i have a lot of work to do and today we’re not seeing each other… almost felt like he forgot… but looks like not. i really hate sunday… i used to think that i was the one down on sunday, but appearently everyone is down, lazy, sleepy and i’m the one kind of hyper and waiting everyone to be on wednesday mood… so i think that’s the problem… it’s like people like to have a sunday of vacations, a day to spent under the covers in bed, not knowing anything about anyone and just watching horrible tv programs… so, sometimes is not my problem at all

i’m losing the interest in blogging again :p at least that looks like it’s the way i’m going i’m ok. my boyfriend is the best one… we are growing every day. we had an horrible argument the other day but it ended well. i’m going to take an astronomy course next week. every night, it’s gonna be hard with out hugo. i’m suppossedly studying for the numerical analisys course but it sucks big time. my website, i still love it and i want to have all the day to update it … i’m going to learn country art to make cutties for my site. — kittens, here i goo – that’s all. i’m definitelly broke, i have no money. i’m living thanks to the support of hugo and friends (what would i do without you?)

Questions For July 6th ‘When I Was A Kid’… 1. Fav. Book as a Child?: Not a particular author, just one about adventures that you have to make a choice in what to do next and depending on that you read a different page. It had nice pictures. 2. Fav. Tv Show as a Child?: Grown up tv series (I still love them LOL) 3. Fav. Movie as a Child?: Gasper 4. Fav. Food as a Child?: Chococrispy & Milo and every single kind of food that it’s made to solve in water or milk… just that i never used the water or the milk 5. Fav. Outfit as a Child?: baggy darkish stuff

well. i’m so sleepy and i slept the whole afternoon in the arms of my beloved sweetheart i’m still wanting vacations. every morning i keep waking up wishing to be somewhere else. i hate sun and hot weather but i’d love to be even in a beach, whatever just relaxing, no work no family no studying. just my bf and me. that would be great i’m still trying to update my site but i had no time to do the changes… i hope i’ll be doing it tomorrow.