i screw the stupid examn i had a terrible low grade, so i did not pass. I’m ok, thanks to Hugo that was there all the time suporting me. The good news is…. Hugo is now MCP!!! wwwwwwwwwwwwwooooooooooooooooww… i’m so happy. i had no time to post during this week, and i had no life until now, i feel free again, i’ll be updating and i’ll be playing with my palm, i’ll be having fun so i’m proud of my boyfriend… he’s the man. I’m not so proud of myself, but i’m ok. i’ll make it some day, i won’t be under pressure and i’ll be fine with myself to approve it. right now, i’m great, i had a wonderful night with Hugo, and he’s my favourite MCP.

Thanks god for the 2 month unlimited internet connection from home i’m gonna cry i’m so happy LOL!!! Thanks hugo, you’re the man! I’m so happy and satisfied ;), both things thanks to my boyfriend i’m lioke crazy, a whole week without internet at home, almost loose my mind but now, i’m back. i have lots of things to post, home page to update, page friends to visit, blogs to read, yadda yadda yadda. makes me remember. the first time i consider doing a website, i checked out geocities (because my best e-pals had sites there). i printed the terms of use, damn i was so excited… and my father prohibited me to do so. he said that i couldn’t handle the lots of crazy people out there… can you believe it? the ironic thing is that designing and mantaining websites is the thing that i love the most in my life!!… after the incident with my modem that left me like 1 month without internet connection, i decided that i didn’t care about my father’s opinion, i would do my site and i’m so glad i did… he was so wrong… like everyday.

i’ve been kind of emotional this times. yesterday in the afternoon i was notified in the library that i’ve a debt and a book missing (borrowed with my name) i was so pissed. and worried. i took that book like a month ago and i asked a friend to give it back in the night and he never did, or he did but someone stole it in the library… i don’t know, the thing is that i have to pay that stupid book and it’s like too damn expensive… i have no money so i’m fucked up and that brought a lot of desestabilization in my freaking psiquis…… i don’t know what’s wrong with me, why do i loose control so easily? i talked to Hugo and he was too busy, and i felt this childish-need to have him near, to hear some words and he said a lot of pretty things, he was worried, but i wanted to hear other shit and i got all mad and sad because he didn’t say it. But it’s so stupid because hell, i know he doesn’t read my mind… that’s when i wonder why i loose control so easily. whatever, then he reacted not so good, because i took a pill i’m used to take when i got all depressive… and he got pissed and whatever… he called me in the night and he apologized… i should do that too!! he’s a really good man. this morning i still felt like too down, but when i got to work, he had a nice present for me, he put a pretty nice nickname in his msn that made me really happy. ‘HS loves this girl —->’ and put up a picture of me :$ damn i’m in love, but i’m still worried about myself. i don’t know why i’m acting like this, why i can’t control my thoughts… why they keep coming to my mind to depress me and pull me down…

LOL. thanks Angelik for your nice comment in here. what can i say. I saw Shrek 2 on monday. pretty funny. but i liked the first part the most, but I LOVE THE CAT!!! damn it’s so pretty! i cried 2 times because of the pity face he made in the movie. i’ve been having great time with my boyfriend :d i’m happy. we’re both having the Exam 70-315 for Microsoft Certification next Wednesday!!! eww i’m nervous… maybe i won’t approve it, but i’ll try to do my best. and i have no internet at home so i’m here at work updating my site, and posting this blogs… i hope i can buy some minutes soon! (although i don’t think so!) the happy news is that i’ve been accepted in the RAOK Bithday Commitee and i’m spreading happy wishes over the internet!! LOL… yeah i’m happy doing my new tasks as a member!! well, gotta go to work, blog later. pd: my bf finally has approved physics 3 :P, congrats babe.

Father’s what? What father? Jeje Last night I did for him 5 origami flowers (I spent 2 hours doing them, until 1 am.) and this morning he didn’t notice them. Not even a thank you. I don’t fucking care, it’s not like he hurts my feelings because anyway I have no feelings for him. And my brother and mother loved them so I really don’t care.

Today was a great day. I spent most of the morning sleeping then beauty bath… umm relaxing. In the afternoon Hugo picked me up to go to his university to check out his physics’ final grade and stuff… the place was empty and he gave me my first driving lesson. He taught me everything I needed to know to start the stupid engine and make the thing move LOL. And so I did it! And I drove the car for 3 km!! it was great, I was so nervous but then happy. And my bf was so proud After that we headed to his house and we had a great time together. He helped me with the transdermal birth-control patch and it’s ok. I’m ok. In the night, great dinner at Presto!! :D:D and Late at night I remembered that tomorrow is father’s day and I didn’t buy anything for my father so after thinking and thinking about it I decided to make some origami flowers and that’s what I’ve made for his present. I don’t think he’ll like them, but at least I’ll feel ok because I’ll have something to give him tomorrow.

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